Miserable At This Point

Posted: February 22, 2014 in Life
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I have too much on my plate.

It seems I keep coming back here this year: going out of my mind because it’s all simply too much.

I have a part-time job now. I applied because I know they hire people around this time of the year and I didn’t want to wait until summer because they hardly hire anyone over the summer.

So now I work on the weekends. I also work every time we have a week off in school. Which was this week. And it’s been about a month since I’ve been working now. And I can tell you that it’s really tiring. And the part that sucks the most is that I still can’t get things right. I keep messing up and the managers always see and they get pissed off and today, I was about to just collapse and burst into tears.

But of course, I would never forgive myself if I let myself get out of control like that.

And now, not only do I have this job to worry about, I also have school, let’s not forget that. I have to keep up my grades. I have to study for the SAT. And I’m a part of the Law Team in my school and we have a competition on Tuesday.

It’s just too much. And it’s really the job that’s getting annoying now. And I can’t even admit it because I wanted it. And I like getting paid. I just need to get used to it. No matter how much attitude my manager gives me. No matter how much I mess up. I need to learn. And I need to deal.

So I’m holding my breath. And washing away my tears. And sucking it up.

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Comments
  1. We really look up to your blog and you are super hilarious! Thanks for the inspiration and feel better:)

  2. My Struggles says:

    Hi it’s me again, i really loved reading this blog post, you sound like a very level headed and hard working person and i really admire that about you.
    p.s. i have taken your advice and made an about page and also managed to make another blog post. i really hope you take the time to read it and hopefully can relate to the kind of things i have written about.
    x

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